Thursday, August 25, 2011

Facing Myself in Facebook

Taking quizzes is among the things I liked doing on Facebook (well, when quizzes were still in). Here, I am posting some of the results that I got, and I must say that they don't sound that far away from the truth...

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The Stripping Down Test

Result: You Are Observant in Life - You are serious and stable. You are a bit of a perfectionist, and you like structure.
You are the happiest when you are planning and dreaming. You like to live in the future.
You are sensitive and considerate. You are always putting other people's needs before your own.
You are adventurous and constantly seeking. You feel like you still have a lot to learn about yourself.

Are You One in a Million?

There are approximately 424,166 people with the last name R-----. This Surname ranks the 42 most common in the United States. There are an estimated 215,901 Females with the last name "R-----". It is further estimated that there are about 29 Females with the exact name, C----- R-----.


What Does Your Mind Look Like?

Your mind is like The Deep Ocean. You are always active, but aren’t easy to get to know. Once people do, they see a clever but relaxed person. Many people look up to you, you're a hard worker, don’t waste time and are loyal to those close to you.


Que movimiento de la Historia Del Artes eres?

Eres Impresionismo - Buscas el completo rompimiento con lo clásico, lo estructurado, lo establecido. Eres un gran observador de los fenómenos de la naturaleza, a la que te vuelcas insistentemente; la forma en la que percibes la luz es todo en tu vida. Muestras también, gran interés en los aspectos espontáneos de lo cotidiano, eres sensible y perspectivo, aunque la sensación de las cosas es lo más importante para ti.


What Is Your Inner Self Saying?

Result: You’re a very unhappy person. Sad nearly all the time. Nothing makes you happy. You seem to always be in a funk and never want to join in with others. Happiness isn't something you look for, you just accept that you're alone, and that's that.


What Song Illustrates Your Life?

Result: Aretha Franklin - "R-E-S-P-E-C-T"!

Is that too much to ask? You work hard, live hard, but don't get what really should be coming your way. Right? Right. You bring in the cash, you bring on the laughs, you even fix the office's photo copier. Recognition? Of course not. Raise? No way. Appreciation? Forget it. Why bother even taking the quiz if no one will be slightly interested in seeing your result. Ask for what you want. Remember, you're the man (or woman)! Just a little bit...I can hear you humming the tune already!


Love And Life Via Date of Birth

Results:

Your Life : You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Although you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities.

Your Love : You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.


Are you a Woman or a Man?

Result: Woman! Congratulations! You are a typical woman who enjoys shopping, guys, and free meals! Be proud of yourself.. unless you are a man who got this result. Then I would seriously suggest changing up your life style.


What Kind of Mom are You

Result: Middle of the road kind of gal - You're really the most ideal kind of mom to have - You're not too strict, you're not too loose. The kids know how to have fun at a playdate, and you're not ripping out your hair worrying all of the time about airborn germs and fingerprints. You keep your kids clean and well maintained yet they have fun getting dirty too. You keep your house picked up, but you don't have a home air purifier system and sanitizing wipes stashed in every nook and cranny. Your kids play well with others because they have manners but they're also relaxed enough to make friends. Good for you!


"Which Crazy Bitch Are You?"

Result: Sinead O'Connor. - You are one fierce bitch. You are very independent and will take no bullshit from anyone but your personality is actually sort of quiet and shy. You are a natural beauty and you are very comfortable with your feminity. You don't feel the need to overdo it or go out of your way to fuss over your looks. You don't want to distract people from what you stand for and the talents you possess. You are very idealistic and will go to any extremes to stand up for what you believe in even if it creates controversy and people don't understand. Relationships can be hard for you sometimes because men feel threatened by you but time again they come running to you and realize that you are actually very sweet and motherly....until they cross you.


"Are You Clinically Insane?"

Result: Bipolar. - Ever wondered why you're so moody? You experience days or weeks of paralyzing, cheeto-binging depression, then a week of frenzied, hyperactive, ridiculously irresponsible behavior characterized by wild thoughts, sleepless nights, maxing out credit cards, having unprotected sex with dozens of strangers... or shaving your head and attacking the paparazzi with an umbrella. Some might call that chemically imbalanced... others call it "passionate" or blame it on the "artistic temperament". Whatever you call it, you could do with some balance... and Abilify..


Which Type of Woman Are You?

Result: Lovely Lady - You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't lose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not lose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are unique and rare!


What Are You Born To Do?

Result: natural instinct - Tell us the truth... when you were a kid you played the detective game more than any other games and you were always the detective. Whether you are a private investigator or a govt. agent you will be the top of your field...you have a natural instinct which helps you to understand and look at it from a different angle than everyone else

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Over the Borderline

It never fails. Whenever I hear Madonna's 'Borderline', no matter how old or how often they play the song to death, I find myself singing along with it. And I'd grin sheepishly at the thought that this gesture is a giveaway for anyone who'd take a guess at my age.

I was about thirteen then, and I still remember dancing to this song at someone's birthday party --- no, not the kind that had balloons and a magic show, but one that had flashing strobe lights and a mobile DJ. Come to think of it, the term 'mobile' had nothing to do with cellular phones back in the day. Anyway, that was when I could outstay anyone on the dance floor, with nothing but the high of being out-and-about coursing through my barely 100-pound frame. No alcohol required (I wouldn't be having my first alcoholic drink until five years later). The high would continue whenever we'd play our favorite music out of mixtapes and would track the songs' rise on the music charts. We didn't 'shuffle' tracks, instead we'd set the audiocassette player on auto-reverse to keep the sounds going.


My teenhood began with Madonna, along with the other eighties new wave artists, with my 'coming of age' being simply marked by a trendy haircut and pair of dangling earrings. I was among the few girls who'd wear eyeliner during my high school freshman year.

During those days there was no Facebook --- well, to be precise about it, in that same year 'Borderline' was released, the famous Facebook co-creator was born. Kids in those days hung out at home or played video games at the arcade. I'm sure there were a lot of other things that teenagers did at that time, but I happened to have hung out with the 'good kids'.'Social networking' for us was a face-to-face activity --- although some would take this a little farther and exchange first kisses in the dark after a party. Kids do that, too, nowadays, right? But in our time no one would broadcast it on a shoutout, tagline, or status.

I really do get a real kick out of singing "Borderline...feels like I'm going to lose my mind," which to me is a way of admitting you're head-over-heels crazy about someone. Hmmm...I think singing more of Madonna's songs while striving to remember what it used to feel like as a love-smitten teenager MIGHT actually be a healthy remedy for someone like me who, sadly, has come to a point of sour-graping and indulging in mortifying doses of 'emo'.

Moving Out, Moving On

Though having moved houses so many times in my entire life, it was the most recent move that brought me through so much sadness, anger, frustration, and loathing. Never had sorting and organizing become so taxing as I went through 12 years of marriage represented by photo albums and frames, old cards and letters, wedding gifts, wedding anniversary gifts, and personal stuff my ex husband left behind.

Among the things I discarded include a kicking foam pad used for muay thai practice, a few formal outfits (one of which was his coat worn at our wedding) and CD player that he won in a raffle at an office Christmas party.

From the kitchen, I tossed out mugs and plates that we had used back when it was just the two of us at home.

I've long held on to my daughter’s old things, but since I couldn’t risk having them waste away in storage, I carefully picked out a few but cherished items. As I went through my daughter’s old clothes, baby toys and board books, my mind sealed off the memories my ex husband and I shared in her early years and instead thought about how he’d no longer be around for her.

It’s been a year and a half since my daughter and I moved to new apartment after the breakup of my marriage. In that span of time, I worked on getting rid of anything that reminded me of that old life. Some pieces of furniture or appliance stayed, but that was only because I didn’t want to spend for a complete household makeover. What counts is that our moving out commences the more tedious process of moving on to rebuild our lives.

What Oprah Knows For Sure

(I do not own this piece. The link is found at the end of the article.)

WHAT I KNOW FOR SURE

I am more aware of time now than I have ever been. Something about turning 50 does that to you, I guess.

I feel an almost primal awareness in the core of myself that there's a finite amount of time left, and that feeling permeates everything I do and dictates how I react in every moment. I'm more conscious and appreciative of every experience, every awakening (gee, I'm still here; I get another chance today to get it right). I try to take them all in, even the negative ones, and see how they relate back to something I created: I believe nothing is happening out of order with yourself.

I take the time, even if it's only one minute in the morning, to breathe slowly and let myself feel the connection to all other breathing and vibrating energies in this world and beyond. I have found that recognizing your relationship to infinity makes the finite more palatable.

What I know for sure is that how you spend your time defines who you are.

I try not to waste time—because I don't want to waste myself. I'm working on not letting people with dark energy consume any of my time. I've learned that the hard way, after giving up hours of myself and my time, which are synonymous when you think about it. I've learned from my experiences of getting sucked into other people's ego dysfunction that their darkness casts a shadow on the light you need to be for yourself and for others.

What I know for sure is that giving yourself time to just be and not do is essential to fulfilling your mission as a human being. I give myself Sundays. Sometimes I spend the whole day in my pajamas, sometimes I have church under the trees communing with nature…most times I just do nothing—piddling, I call it—and let my brain and body decompress from six days of nonstop mental bombardment. If I didn't do that, I would implode, literally, in a crazy psychic breakdown. And whenever I've slipped up and missed a Sunday, I've noticed a definite change in my disposition for the rest of the week. I know for sure that you cannot give and give and give to everybody else and not give back to yourself. You will end up empty, or at best less than what you can be for yourself and your family and your work. Replenish the well of yourself, for yourself first. And if you think there's no time to do that, what you're really saying is, "I have no life to give to or live for myself." And if you have no life to live for yourself, then why are you here?


http://www.oprah.com/omagazine/200404/omag_200404_mission.jhtml
In the madness of everyday existence, the retreat into quiet solitude is when the moment's troubles stop. Tearing through to-do lists and the next day's resolutions, the mind becomes stilled upon reaching the nest of memories. Be it of pleasure or pain, the revisited experience echoes life's lessons.

The voice from our past, whether our own or that of our mentor, is what keeps us steady. And coming back to the present, we become settled with the world once again.